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Hope you like reading my blog & do leave your comment. Thank you lovely people. =)
I just wana say I'm glad & very grateful to Allah for this special person that has been brought into my mundane life. Though there may be many downs & hardships that we had to go tru, at the end off the day, I really feel so lucky to have known this great person.
Though 2 yrs may be a short time, but through these 2 years itself, I have learnt alot. Most of them were very painful yet meaningful lesson.
I will always remind myself to never let this precious diamond break into pieces as how my heart has already been. Like a wise man used to say, to love is to give not to take.
When u love someone, U love whole heartedly and never expect any return. Coz if ur love is pure, u will get wat u give.
I ♥ you Saiful Iszwan with all my heart. Happy 2 yrs Anniversary. =)♥
[Promise in the dark]
Can't count on you most of all when I really need it, Its the simple things that you do really hurt my feelings.. The more I tried, the more I'm starting to see it. This cant work anymore than you believe it.. Goodbye may come as a shock, Even though i love you a Lot. I've given every breath I've got. Sometimes you gotta break down and breath... (chorus)) and how many times I gave my heart..to.. how may times we fell apart. And it equals(equals).. A PROMISE IN THE DARK... so dont promise me.. and how many times I gave you me ... divided by so many memories... and it equals (equals).. A PROMISE IN THE DARK. so dont promise me... (listen,listen). I just don't know what the problem is.. what the deal is.(noo) Was I there too much.. did i move too fast.. i couldnt see it. All these promises are probably how you deal with it. I'm tired of hearing you say your innocent. Don't think I forgot. Who cares if you're lying or not.. I've given every breath I've got, Sometimes you gotta break down and breath (chorus) We all make mistakes. Sometimes we do desperate things What does that prove.. nothing.. And you never do nothin wrong . And what took you so long. (took you so long). Cause i keep keep hanging on(keep keep hanging on) (chorus) so dont promise me........Is it true that promises are meant to be broken?
If it is, why would anyone initiate a promise in the first place when they dont intend to fulfill th
em?
I admit not everyone would, on purpose, break their promises. I have to understand that some things just cant be avoided.
Maybe its just me but personally, I would not make any promise which i think i cant or might not be able to accomplish.
But then again maybe its just me.
This song by Keri Hilson tells a story similar to what im trying to portray.
Dont say u can or u will just to cheer someone up coz if that person really holds on to ur words, u mite end up hurting them instead.
I
HATE
YOU
SO
MUCH
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am so unwell.
just went to see the "stupid" doctor. (quoted by someone)
i had no choice coz of budget contstraint.
but now i couldnt bring myself to touch the medication.
idk.
i feel like ive wasted my money on the clinic trip.
when my substantive remedy doesnt cost a thing.
only TLC.
but sadly it's continents & continents away.
sigh~
I WANA GET OUT OF THIS BODY~!!!!
im so so not looking forward to tomorrow. *pouts~
but to dear friends, i'll put all that aside just to see the smiles on your face tomorrow aite.
love you guys~!!
i bought a new phone!! yipeeee~~!!
Nanti kita kan tahu Semoga kepergianmu Nanti kita kan tahu Semoga kepergianmu Semoga kepergianmu Semoga kepergianmu
Thinking of you when i listen to this song.
Listen to the lyrics and you'll understand how i'm feeling.Apa pun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti
Air mata tertahan
Waktu untuk dijatuhkan
Betapa bijaknya hidup
Sepahit apa pun ini
Pelajaran yang berarti
Tak akan merubah apapun
Semoga mampu ku lawan
Kesepianku…
Betapa bijaknya hidup
Sepahit apa pun ini
Pelajaran yang berarti
Tak akan merubah apapun
Semoga mampu ku lawan
Kesepianku…
Tak akan merubah apa pun
Semoga mampu ku lawan
Kesepianku…
Tak akan…
Semoga mampu ku lawan
Kesepianku… Apa pun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti.
I miss you alot baby.
if you think missing me is hard,
you should try missing you. ♥
♥
reminiscing the past brings me back to the days spent wif the most wonderful guy.
no matter what others have to say, i still feel dat im such a lucky gal to have known this special person.
and thanks to my laptop, i wouldn have met him. which brings us to where we are now.
"absence make the heart grows fonder".
i never thought this phrase is possible. i used to think when 2 people, who had never been separated even by less than 12 hours, being drawn apart by many2 continents, its denyingly impossible to contact every min we need each other.
but my opinion changed for the better. now i realize why at times, there is a need for this separation.
through this painful yet enduring disunify, we began to learn how to appreciate one another. we manage to reflect back about the things that we have done in the past which unintentionally hurt the other party.
even when i hate my life, i can say that i am content.
Now i just cant wait for that special day to happen. Insya'Allah.
im in a dilemma~~!!
b called!!
7 March 2010
Kite Flying Outing
Wasnt really that enthusiastic to go at first but when we reached there, so many people were flying different shapes & sizes of kite, 
it turns out to be fun afterall. It was super beautiful.
I'll just let the pictures do all the story telling.. =pWat i realized after seeing all these pictures was that my face is so "cut & paste" hahahha.
Macam paham je. =p
Cik Ramli amongst the kites above.
my partner for the whole day. Syafiah. ( I guess being a kindergarten teacher now makes me love kids more =)
Qisti, Syafiah & me
With Ibu
Syafiah, Ibu & me
With Syafiah
With Adik
With Brother & our "ugly, bought on the spot" kite (sampai terlepas tudung =p)
Brother struggling to carry me with father showing off the "ugly" kite at the back
With Cik Lyn
Syafiah, Ibu, Qisti, Cik Lyn & me
Ugly face time. hehe.
Looks more like throwing the fish net than flying kite. haha
Brother trying to coax me. (sempat merajok jap. haha)
And finally its all ok. =)
Random picts of Syafiah =)
Whatever it is, overall i had so much fun!!
And all problems were set aside for a while.=)
Another kite flying outing please!
Was randomly browsing the net when i stumbled into this website. Clicking on the "miss you" button, saved some of them & turned it into a collage.
So here it is.
This aint going no where. I guess this time, my blog will be damn boring coz all i can think abt writing is how much i wish you're back here already.
Seriously, I feel like im in a dream. A BAD one. Nightmare.
I cant seem to wake up.
While my dream is like reality. A GOOD one.
I dont seem to wana wake up.
Blabbering bla bla bla. Yes. She cant stop thinking abt him. She cant stop missing him. She cant stop loving him. She cant even stop talking abt him. But 1 thing she's starting to stop doing is sharing it with others.
Ya. All these are done to herself. By herself. With herself.
And before s
he goes really crazy, she wrote it all down in her blog. Atleast she's letting it
out than keeping it to herself.
If only.............................................................
Missing you has never really been a big issue before coz i know i'll be seeing you again the next day.
But now that you're miles and miles away, to say i miss you is not really the right word.
She feels something more than missing him.
With others, she smiles.
She feels something more than lonely.
With others, she jokes.
She feels something more than worried.
With others, she giggles.
She feels something more than upset.
With others, she laughs.
She reckoned putting on a facade, to sham feelings, being bogus helps.
For now it is the sole remedy that she could cling on.
Living in denial.
In reality, it is by far, perishable.
Random post..
Collage of us done by him some time in 2008
Collage of us done by her recently
i miss you so so much =(
Friday 5 March 2010 marks 1 week since he last call.
52 days since she last see him.
the day when she sent him off.
but she didnt want to let him go.
the day when she got his last kiss & hug.
but she didnt want to let him go.
the day when she had to battle with her tears.
but she really didnt want to let him go.
And now its all too late.
I hate to say this but b dear, I told you so. =(
all i can saythe birthday celebration will be glued permanently in our mindsthough all of my surprises turned out to be revealed even before the actual surprise(and i meant every single one of them) =(the most important thing is that he loved themand i was actually the one who got a surprise instead*Carousel dinner at Royal Plaza hotel*and he was so shy and blushing when the whole carousel crew sang (from the song: 'cant take m y eyes off you-Frankie Valli)"lala lala lalalala (x3)lalalala laaaaaaaaaaaait is your bdaeand bla bla bla...." (i forgot the rest of the lyrics.. i was stoned too haha)....."b which is the part that you love the most about today?""The morning delivery"....I specially love the last part of the day.. though it was not part of the plan.. heheh....
The day has comethat special day for that special someoneive had plans made way before this daybut slowly, one after the other, the plans just go down the drainbut no worriessyasha always have something sweet & romantic in mind it all depends on the receiver on how he's gona perceive it ....yes we've had many glitches as we move aheadwe quarrel almost everydayshe sulks over the tiniest little thinghe got mad at hershe got mad at himbut at the end of the daywe got back together in one piece.. =P....he always asked her why?why she got jealous?why is she mad?why is she acting the way she's acting which could execute a quarrel?those qns were always left unanswered..coz she only know one definite reason for them......that particular reason may sound stupid
childishunrealisticbut that's the only thing that comes lavishly from the bottom of her hart......and that scrupulous reason is because....i love you.....
I love you so so much.. MuackX!!!!!!.jpg)
Happy Monthsary baby!!
01.10.2008
Hari Raya AidilFitri
Hari kemenangan seluruh umat Islam di dunia ini
but to us, this day will be a day that we will never forget.
and it has not ended yet.
.
We were all ready to ask for forgiveness and then head off to nenek's place.
It was about close to 3pm alrd.
Ibu went first, asking for forgiveness from Ayah.
Then it should be my turn but i was trying to let the others go first by going in and out of the kitchen pretending to do sth.
In the end, adeq went 2nd.
Then I had to go instead since bro looked like he was not ready yet.
Was holding back my tears the whole way. and i managed.
It was then bro's turn and he was holding back his tears too.
ya. he is sensitive deep inside though he always manage to put on a tough look on the outside.
Then its to Ibu.
I went first.
Again tried to hold back the tears. Both of us did. While at that, we just stared at each other for like 10 secs long, then my tears started to fall, unwillingly.
Like a domino, my mom started to cry next. And it went on for a few seconds before we could talk to each other.
Next my sis and lastly bro. (He always manage to go last.Hmph!)
Now comes the appalling part.
Siblings' turn.
He just doesnt want to.
I tried to control my tears everytime he said NO.
and in the end, i failed again. I cried and went to my room.
Dah tk payah! org tknk kluar pon!
Kak kluar, kan baru mintak maaf ngan ibu.
i lose.
Went out.
After much force, he sat with his side facing me.
Lincah!
Dgn tidak ikhlasnye he held my hands and kissed it.
Itu cara minta maaf?
Ibu was not satisfied.
Then he started the whole incident.
We argued.
Im omitting the precise details of the rest.
....
...
..
.
He left the house.
with his skateboard.
without a word.
and didnt came back.
....
the whole house was in complete darkness.
complete silence..
and it was suppose to be the day of victory for all muslims.
Hari Raya PERTAMA.
....
ive lost everything....
The once 'a happy US' is now tumultuous.
and it so happened to be because of the black sheep.
unfortunately the black sheep is
....
me
='(
Dah lama tak berjumpa rindu rasa hatiingin ku bertemu denganmu..24.09.08SMS1:41pmSayang! Happy Anniversary!Where are you dear? Boleh on MSN?....MSN message13:46:51Humz........1:55pmTakpe lah. Saye today nak datang and you won't reply. I off laptop skrg.Salams.then the office phone rings..She answeredMED-EL SingaporeHello, you alone in the office.... yaCall me........Then she called him but Arlene was already in the office so she thought they wouldnt talk long on the phone but eventually they did..And everything was settled.. =)He tried to get the means so they're able to celebrate yesterday but luck was not on his side.. And so it was all on her hands now..And finally they managed to go out..Ate at BK (their fav) double mushroom swiss with extra ham.. =Pand impromptu movieBabylon A.Dlike he said.. cerita tkde pangkal tkde hujunghehe.. but she likes the hero.. so oklah..She enjoyed yesterday even though there were some glitches in the middle & at the end, but all was settled..She hopes that $$ wont be an issue in futureso that they will always be with each other and live happily ever after.. insya'Allah.. hehe..ps: she wants to say that she loves him so much.. Muackx!!pps: she can't wait for that day (after hari raya haji) =P 24.05.09.... Insya'Allah =)
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